laugh if you can't find me

Filming got cancelled tonight because of the weather. I really enjoyed myself, running around Silloth beach in the 1950s! I'm aching like hell from giving a girl a piggy back though. I'm not built to carry a woman. Plus. That is the longest kiss I've ever done with a girl. Just wrong.

i got up, remembering to thank him

I'm currently watching Dark Matter, a film about some Chinese student studying under an American professor. It's a typical student-getting-better-than-teacher-therefore-teacher-despises-student's-skill type thing. Meryl Streep is in it, too. It's got all the lovely scientific language in it, as well as a whole linguistic Chinese element. It has a lot of the lonliness of genius sort of despair thing, as well as the awkwardness imposed by cultural differences. I'll update this when I see the end of it. I think it got about 6/10 on IMDB.
I watched the Manchurian Candidate yesterday and there seem to be a lot of films involving Meryl Streep in intergenerational relationships. Well, technically it was only hinted in both films, and it was incest in the Manchurian Candidate, but hey.

Okay, so I've never seen such a relatively calm film end like that.

she was gone with a cinematographer

But everyone knew he was really a pornographer.

If you can't tell what my photoshop style is yet, this poster from months ago will help. Shit, and I can't spell Pixies.

and if they ever find me, tell the papers

Bah. I'm so ill today. Not properly ill, but enough to justify lying in bed all day.
I did some media work though. This was a film trailer/ad campaign thing that I did for my coursework resit. The image, when the print room got their hands on it, came out about as big as two stamps. The quality is absolutely terrible, though. Not sure why.

if everybody's here, then hell knows we ride alone

This is me trying to logically work out where the direction of my band's film project is going. In the top-left corner, there is a box labelled Introduction and Dream Talk. As you can see, by following any branch I seem to end up at time travel. The most interesting thing that arose from this method of planning was: my character needs some sort of subplot. This is possibly quite interesting.

The film I'm acting in is about an old man who gets attacked while visiting his wife's grave. I play one of the school kids who attacks him. Oh, and I play a younger version of the old man in a flashback. I haven't read the script yet, but that's not important, as I have exactly one line in the whole thing.

Amazingly, I was recommended due to my performances in some of the AS media projects I acted in last year. I bet it was my convincing junkie role.

standing by the grey ice water

Still have the Concrete stamp on my hand, twice. Had an awesome birthday. I drank solidly for fourteen hours but managed to never be totally drunk.

I've been recommended to act in a film. That is bloody amazing. I'm meeting up with the guy and his girlfriend tomorrow to discuss my acting role. I'm so excited.

got dirt got air got water

and I know we can carry on! The Good Times Are Killing Me by Modest Mouse.

The song lyrics in my last post were from Franz Ferdinand, hope you're not disappointed!

I got a birthday card off the Tories this morning, I was quite touched but then realised everyone gets one. My gran knows the guy on the back, and described him as one of the "slimiest, most grotesque, evil" people she has ever met. Awesome.

i may be lonlier now

But I'm happy alone, honest.
It ain't lonely alone.
Oh, what would we talk about anyway?

Awesome, I love that band.

Had my French oral exam this morning, I've never been so underprepared for an exam.
I want a double bass.
We came up with tons of ideas about the Project. It's about time travel, but not.

we are accidents waiting waiting to happen

My camera won't work, so this is the opening scene to our film.

"I had this dream...
we were all there, you remember?
There were people fighting.
I don't know why. A
woman with sore joints-
arthritis, isn't it? She
couldn't carry her shopping.
There was this man. His
ex-wife had used some
legal thing to take their
kid, but she was just
making him ill. What's
that thing called?"

"Munchausens by proxy."

"Oh right. Well.
They were fighting.
One of them said
let us out
or we want out or something. I don't really get it.
I thought you might."

This is my thought process.

the good times are killing me

So, we've come up with this thing. It's a band thing. It's called The Project.
It's basically a film, which we're going to film, edit, act in, and create a soundtrack for. Mathers is gonna hate this idea, but the rest of us are genuinely excited.
I wrote the opening scene already. My camera needs charged, but I'll post it in the morning if I remember.

and we are standing on the edge

You know when people don't listen? Fucking bloody hell.
Plus, I'm lazy and don't work.

you stare into the dark, the dark will stare back

I'm not really a conventional sort of guy.
I've told family and stuff I don't really want anything for my 18th.
A barbecue, or a meal. A haircut. That's it really. Company.

I had a general studies exam today. Two in fact. What a fucking waste of time.

it's hard to remember we're alive

It's my birthday next Saturday. Awesome.
This is annoying. I don't know what to say.
Ugly Cassanova are great for experimentalism.
Oh. I acted with Becca in front of my year at 6th form, in the cathedral. Got loads of laughter. I was born to be an actor. Other stuff. I just got added by some random gay. Scary.

don't get any big ideas, they're not gonna happen

that's been edited out
Can pretty much play Ulysses, learning Paranoid Android.

Lead singer knows me and the drummer used to be in a relationship.

Went to Houghton Hall, where I used to work. Bitch supervisor was there. Very, very hot latino looking guy. Tanned, spiked black hair, thin, with muscled arms. Probably called Alejandro.

climbing up the wall, i'll be there

finalised my application for uni today. My choice is Leeds, which wants three Bs, and LJMU, which wants two Cs. Great. Wish I'd chosen Manchester.
While rushing for school at half one today, I heard Green Day's new song on Radio 1 (I know..). Know Your Enemy is not only telling Americans to hate the Muslims living in their towns (or any foreigner living near them), but it sounds as bland as the entire American Idiot album was. tl;dr: green day suck.

You have not been
Paying attention
Paying attention
Paying attention
Paying attention

sounds like me.
Reno has a whole four songs which are finished, pretty much. Not A Killer, Nostalgia, the Silence and Tu Mantes. Amazing. We've still got The Vixen to work on, as well as Gentle Biscuits and Show Me Round The World. Being in a band is fucking fantastic compared to sixth form.
Which reminds me, Radiohead are amazing. We're lucky to have them. Look at me, completely brainwashed. Okay, Neutral Milk Hotel. How can something so overtly Christian affect me in the same way? affect or effect. That's going to kill me.

I got Season 4 of Stargate. Looking forward to watch that.
I was in Glasgow on Sunday. Lots of my family were there and my gran introduced my ex to everyone as my boyfriend. That sort of thing doesn't make me too happy. I need to distance myself from him. Which, I seem to have done. Neither of us are at work or school, and we're not together. Something like this hasn't happened for months. There has been a complete lack of any sort of intimacy between us. We're going to fall out soon. This relationship is fucking mental.

everyone is so near

Walked down to school in the wet only to find that my lesson has been cancelled. We've got, what, three weeks til exams?
I asked Olly about the theatre group (in my nervous, stuttering, idiot voice) and he basically said "Don't call us, we'll call you." Great.
Anyway, I miss sci-fi. Trying to get my hands on season 4 of Stargate right now.
I might see if Tom's PS2 is working, but my gran dropped it a few days ago, so I won't get my hopes up.
Maybe I'll have to audition for Olly and Danny. That speech near the end of series 3 of the League of Gentlemen is amazing. I'm gonna look for it.